Chapter 3

Im sitting here all alone. Its about 3 am and no one's awake but me.I cant sleep. Guilt,frustration,and anxiety are building up inside me. I still cant believe i turned Alex Gaskarth down. Alex Gaskarth, am i crazy? Im starting to think so.

I hear giggles. Wait, i thought i was the only one up. I listen closely.

"Shhhhh Jack , youll wake everyone up" I hear someone say. Geez, we havent played one show and Jacks already got a groupie.
"Oh,its ok, Alex is out like a light and i dont know about Ellie, but to be honest Karan, i dont care" Jack speaks in a charming voice.

Ugh. This is awful. I hate groupies. I mean, come on, this girl - wait a sec, he said Karan.

Karan is in there with Jack! Oh my god. Ummm, i dont know what to do.

"I think Ellie would freak if she saw us." Karan speaks. If she only knew.

I rush off to my bed. I dont need to hear anymore.

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Ok, so today Alex got up and acted like nothing happened. I think he knew i didnt need to think about anything else but tonight. Tonight. Tonight is my first show!!
Omg, i can barely contain myself. We're in Maryland so this is a very important hometown show too.
Im in the dressing room freaking out. i have my own dressing room. I look toward my closet and pick out the best outfit i can. A Glamour Kills shirt and hot pink Hot Topic skinny jeans.

I pull off my shirt and right as i do that -

"Hey Ellie, i got a question - WHOA!" Alex says as he walks in on me.

"Im sorry, ill go" He says leaving.

Oh my god, that DIDNT just happen. That couldnt have.

But it did.
I pull on my shirt and rush out.

"Alex!" i say giggling. I couldnt believe what just happened, or why i was laughing about it.

"Im sooo sorry Ellie. I was just gonna ask if Jack had already asked you about Remembering Sunday and then Boom, your topless!"

I cant help but laugh at this. He totally didnt mean to, and i know it.

"Its totally okay, and Jack already asked me. Im super excited. My first show!"

"Well, i got another question."

"What?"

"Are you ready?"

God,i hope so.

Chapter Two.

[scroll down for Chapter One!]


Im writing this from the bus. Im sitting here watching alex and jack fight over the silliest things. I swear they're just like brothers.We havent played a show yet,but im dying to. I dont know how im gonna get used to living on a bus with this many boys. && Alex keeps smiling at me. Yeah,just what i need,to have to turn alex gaskarth down. There he goes smiling again. Does that even mean something? Or is he just being coy? I dont know,but everytime he does it,i get weakin the knees. Wait,does that mean something? Im going to slap myself if it does.

Karan's already asleep. She's sitting right next to me, her head on my foot. Yes,i said that,her head is actually on my foot. So i cant really move but im typing as fast as i can as Alex is walking over to me.

"Heyy" he smiles and says.
"Hi", i say sweetly.
"So,what do you think of this luxury five star bus?" He says with pure sarcasm.
"Ummm,its not so bad,i guess"
"You say that now"
"Oh really?"
"Yeahh, once you get past LA and have a stinky bathroom,the glamour fades"
I laugh.
"I like your laugh" Alex says.
I laugh again. Geez Ellie, quit laughing so damn much.
"So,um, (noticin we are one barakat less) Where did Jack go?"
"IDk,wherd Karan go?"
I look down. Sure enough she's gone. How did i not know this? Wow, i mean, alex is charming,did i not even notice a human asleep at my foot walk out of the room? I guess that says something.

"So,um, this is gonna seem really forward but um, do you wanna like idk,we cant be alone very much ,but um maybe we - "
I interupt him.
"Alex, i cant. I have to focus on this.and ya know,the tour,and well,i have to become well, a monk"
"A monk?"
"No dating, ya know? Well , for now."
"Damn Monk" He says with a half witted smile.

and right then i feel like the biggest fool.
the biggest fool with the biggest crush.

But, i am a monk.

Chapter One.

All my life i wanted nothing but one thing : to be able to share my music with the world. I spent so many nights dreaming about it, aching for it.
It was always there, in my soul pushing me and pushing me
.
and now its finally gonna happen.
I feel like im asleep.
Like someone should pinch me and wake me up.
Because this, this just has to be a dream.


Ok,so maybe i should catch you up.

My name is Ellie Lynx. [like Links] and i am going on tour to open for . . .ALL TIME LOW.


How did this happen? Well,i started singing when i was 3. I know this because my mom has video (more like blackmail) of me singing Lassie. But i didnt know that i had talent. Major talent.And after hard work, i finally got discovered. It may sound cliche,but i was discovered after creating a myspace.So i guess we ARE the myspace generation.Im 18. and so far,i can barely hold back my excitement for this tour. Its gonna open doors for me like crazyyy. and not to mention, ALL TIME LOW? Geeeez,i cant even imagine how many girls wanna kill me just because i will even be next to them.and im bringing my best friend Karan [like karen] with me. I think she's gonna fit in with the rock n roll lifestyle just fine. She's sang with a hairbrush in her underwear so many times,i halfway think she's better at it than me.

I know that the All Time Low guys are sexy,but i wont let them interupt my career.
At least, ill try.